i used to be totally opposed to ross but when they get nice stuff in they can be pretty great (if you can get over the rude customers and long lines). today i gave in after my mom bought me a pair of new black flats yesterday and said the store had nice jeans in. i always get jeans like once a yr b/c i need a certain style and they have to be stretchy! i think for me, jeans = the cheaper the better. :P and every yr i go up a size. that really sucks. i can't go up anymore. i have to def do a few exercise classes in college! anyway, i got 6 pairs of jeans! the most expensive were 20 bucks and that was only 2 pairs. i like the brand hydraulic. 4 were those and 2 angels. the angels ones were more basic. then i got a pair of blue flats w/ funky silver semi heels (heels for flats. haha). they have fleurs de lis on them. also, i bought 2 headbands. 3 bucks each. :D i love those now that i have bangs! my mom paid for everything but those. and i also got a decent 11 buck laptop case. the hand-me-down from my dad was lame-o. haha. no, but it's pretty worn and ugly so i opted for a new bag. :) im so happy and also super excited for chicago/naperville tomorrow! (i havent packed yet though!). yipee!! :)

tomorrow my mom and i go to michigan. orientation is mon-wed. i am so excited to pick my classes, get my id, and get my macbook. i hope i make friends and that the advisors as well as the kids are all nice. i hope i get good classes and test out of a lot of french. im so so so excited. i really hope that things go well. since we have the whole day tomorrow we're going to roam ann arbor. i hope it's nice. maybe i will find some nice shopping spots. :) i cannot wait.

i just watched the queen and i apologize for saying that you didn't deserve best actress. it was a pretty great and moving picture, blah blah.

i went shopping today and got some stuff done. it was nice. i was happy. and i saw a ring that looked JUST LIKE the murano glass ring i got in italy that broke when i was tossing a mini jam jar up and down and they had a dreadful moment of contact. :( it was too big though!!!! :( i was going to buy it. it was murano too, im sure from the same person. i mean, it's hand made so it might have been slightly different but it was essentially exactly the same! she said it might come in in different size later so i have to wait it out. i mean, i couldn't have made that one fit anyway. i really hope they get one in because i loved that ring and it made me so ecstatic to see it. :D i'm sure i screeched a little. and i bought some addidas perfume that made me nostalgic too because i used to wear that in middle school. it might be cheapy but i think it smells great. i need to buy some more bcbg though. i found it in a store. that's my perfume. yep. but they didn't have it in jc penney and i had a gift card. i want to get some others too to change it up every once in a while, but i have better stuff to buy. i got a wallet. that was nice. mine was little and from alice in wonderland. hahaha. i'm just so happy i saw that ring. :)

i was looking at bed bath and beyond online to get ideas for my dorm. and i did a store locator. and there's a store less than 4 miles from the school. and knowing that gave me the most amazing feeling of excitement. not because i love bed bath and beyond...but just knowing that everything's there. i mean, im not in the middle of nowhere and even though it's all new, there's also stuff that i've always had around me. and for some reason that gave me the best feeling of possibility. it's really happening! ah!

i wish my parents were rich so we could get a laptop right NOW. and i'd get the vaio sz loaded with all the cool features and all the memory it can have. with top quality photo and video editing software. and all the necessary accessories and a nice wireless mouse. and a designer laptop case. ;) ok, so really i just want the vaio and SOON. :( my mom gets mad whenever i mention it. and i think it'd be cheaper to get it off of the websites w/o all the features i don't need. but then at the same time we don't really know enough to know what i need. but whenever i want to go look at laptops my mom gets into her bitchy screamy voice. you dont want to order and you dont want to look. there better be killer father's day sales if im waiting so long. and it's like, tell me how much you're willing to spend to see how much money i need to put in so i can think about it and see what i can really afford. but right now im here falling in love w/ awesome notebooks and im guessing we're not the best financially and im just waiting and almost everyone's got a laptop already. in fact, most people got computers in high school. i never had my own laptop and my dad never let me take his for presentations. :( blahhhh. and im sick.

i feel gross b/c i have a cold thanks to either meagan, hallee, or del. lil stinkers. and i'm tired b/c my nose was stuffed all night so i woke up earlier than normal b/c laying down made me unable to breathe. but whatever. yesterday i had fun w/ my fam at jennifer and steph's grad parties. and after steph's she, stacey, laura, gaby, and i went to see mr brooks which was scary. haha. but good. except supa weird. today my mom gave me the victoria's secret catalogue and told me to pick out bras and undies for college. yipee. no more granny panties i've had since i was like 10. hahaha. actually, i have a few good bras and pink undies from before. then she and my dad went to get something. not sure what and she gave me her angel gift card thing and told me i could spend 100 dollars. :D i got 5 pink undies. 2 other undies. and 4 bras. and then w/ my own money i spent a little more than i should have on a fleece oversized hoodie that just looked amazingly warm and comfy and perfect for hanging out at mich next yr and then a pair of pink sweats. im sure everyone prob has the same pair too but they look so comfy. not sure if i got the right size on that though. =/ i'm so excited though. and i finally printed a pic for my id. my mom says my face looks fat, and it kinda does, but it's amazing compared to my horribl disgusting ehs one. so i'm over the fact that i dont look like a supermodel. it's just an id. :) i wanna keep getting things done every day. i think today im going to the mall w/ steph. not sure for what. i hope i dont get tempted into spending money. and before my mom and i want to go to party city or somewhere to get some lame decorations for my family graduation party. blah. i don't even want to get dressed but i like doing things. :)

yay! my name no longer has to be tied with ehs. :D the ceremony was a reflection of the last 4 yrs at ehs. i was not at all emotionally moved. but i did get to hate and play cool games w/ jen, kristen, and bianca. even though i sucked at them. and maaaaajor DHxC moments. omg. it's so good jen was sitting by me. and then later i saw jania and got to tell her how we thought of our fellow DHxC member while seasons of love was moving me almost to tears (haha, not). the chorus was really amazing though. and it was so funny b/c the whole back and everything past the 1st 2 rows started hugging and crying and being totally emotional and rows A and B were kinda just standing there. especially my row. i guess the top of the class is not as sad to leave? hahaha. too funny. whatever. im out. but i feel exctly the same since i've been done w/ everglades's crap since the yr started. and i was totally mad at my fam b/c they didnt sit where i told them since they stupidly waitd for my aunt and uncle instead of getting seats and the whole time i thought they were dead. and then i couldnt find them when it was over thanks to my mom making no sense as to where she was staying. i hope they're getting me a laptop or something since as of now they haven't given me anything. not even a card or a rose or something to make me feel special. =/

bye everglades. i hated you since the start and i hate you more now. glad i'm gone.

p.s. why the HELL was singer reading names/up on stage at all?!?!? as far as i know she hasnt TAUGHT at the school in a yr. way to haunt me forever you stupid backstabbing rude bitch.

is so deep. like, more deep than grey's anatomy almost. or certainly more life changing. maybe because it relates to stuff. i don't even know how. but it's so modern. and september 11 is a big deal in it. not that it affected me directly or anything. but that's something we all were touched by. we'll always be telling the story about that day and how we felt. but here it's different. i don't know. i guess i love tv because it gives you these people we know so well in everyday life. the characters we all meet, but then it breaks them down and makes them real people. and you can see a different side that you never imagined. and you hate watching them break because it's so tragic but you love it because then it's ok if you do it. aw tv, why do you affect me so?

i started watching brothers and sisters yesterday and i really like it. i wanna be one of those women who is so strong and powerful and no nonsense. but maybe sometimes i am too much one. i don't wanna push everyone away and be alone forever. i think i want one of those guys like in movies and tv shows that's like a challenge. you know those movies where there's this idiot guy but then he meets his match and has this whole new awesome side. haha. like in i love trouble. that movie is good. lol. but that's kinda how it is in brothers and sisters. well, right now. i'm only on episode 5 or something.

oh, and my dad is so stupid. he's like is lol lots of luck or lots of love. and i said laugh out loud and then my mom goes no, my friend says it's lots of love. wtf? i went through this already.

something about being out of school always makes me feel lonely. it's been one day and i already feel distant. i don't get it. i guess it's because i have too much time to think. it's all so 8th grade, with my simple plan music and starting anew. why can't it all be like in the movies (the happy ones, not the ones i like)? :(

well, they changed again. i'm assuming these are the final ones with our grades in. i moved down one. :( i got all As, but i guess i didn't have all that many APs. so i'm going to be 14. better than 15. not top 10 like i always wanted, but not bad either. ;) i just wonder who i am sitting next to.

FINALLY, SCHOOL IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Plus, w/ my AP Eng grade having gone in, I moved up 2 spots in class standings! I hope I don't move down after grades, but I have all As, so hopefully I can move up! WooHoo!

whoa.

i cut my hair, made my bed, took a really long relaxing shower while jamming to regina spektor. ah, life sometimes.

grey's anatomy always leaves me so depressed. and questions won't be answered until i'm in my tiny little dorm in MICHIGAN! holy crap!

things are posted on a wall. and you try to look casually and pretend not to be disappointed.

grey's anatomy totally gets me.

i may not be the girl next door...but im the girl down the block in your hood.




i don't think this requires words...

this school is crap.

I'm DONE w/ English. And I finished w/ a 95%! :D woohoo. NO MORE ONLINE CLASSES EVERRRRRRRRRRRRR!

P.S. AP French today. I don't think I totally bombed, but not sure on what score. We'll see!